2007

2006 was a good year of leisure and 2007 will be a year of taking things seriously... you know, find a job and study too.

that kind of seriousness.

I Smell Hmmhum Candy

"I smell sex and candy here,
who's that lounging in my chair
who's that casting devious stares
into my direction
Mama this surely is a dream"
-Marcy Playground

It kept playing on my mind. I do know S & C when I smell one.

Too bad I can't see him anymore. He's not bad, it is just that he reminds me of an ex which is not a good hit. Not at all. I don't fancy being reminded of a past flame. I'm not hating or anything, it is more drawn to the lines of awkwardness and disturbing.

Just being true people, No way I can go on seeing him at the same time, think of another person. Ahhh, too much resemblance! That's too bad.

I don't eat candies everyday but when I do, I enjoy it...and I had my christmas candy! lol Don't go grouching on me now.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Outgrow

Sometimes we outgrow friends.

"Guys are so easy"
- Brooke Davis, One Tree Hill

I don't need bullshit.

I wonder why my life isn't so complicated. It's like 'a hit or miss. Hit it then good, miss it then try next time or try another one. Is that an abnormal point of view in life?

Here's a revelation, all of my friends found their ika nga "nawawalang pares ng tsinelas" ("missing pair of slippers") but me. Shitty curse.

What a manifestation of my my boring life. Look at me, I'm sinking...no superman to save me. Fucker. But ofcourse, I had to live and got to the sea surface to catch breath and the reality of this misery... got on my board on my own "lonely" self.

There was just so nasty tall waves this weekend, not the kind a professional advice to a novice surfer to ride. Although I did dare and dared at the cost of my life. My life flashed before my eyes when I got wiped out. Not a pleasant experience.

I did quote Brooke Davis above, just shit. Guys are so easy. They all want fuck. Give in or not, they want fuck. I've never had a serious relationship in a long time (is something wrong with me?) The duration is just alarming. MORE THAN THREE YEARS.

I'm a well adjusted "single" by now, i just kind of "right now" missing cuddling. I don't want being so indepented all my life!!! But I don't dream of settling for flings.

Flings. I thought I had one right now, apparently, he did back out on our special day. So scratch him off my list. That's ok though, but while this issue is boiling today, it was not so big a deal that it happened because I keep figuring out my friends' relationship issues -I'm placing my friends' issues than mine...because it is just a question of desire...gusto or ayaw and that is it.

Maybe this is just an emotional episode. I went surfing with a couple and I kind of miss the feeling of in a relationship. Just really missing the sincerity, caring, cuddling part... it's been so damn long.

Guys are so easy, but no one said loving someone is so hard. Hard to say, I think I'm inlove with you. Just so darn hard.

I did tell my crushies that I like them but you see the result:

EMPTINESS.

Sure I can sleep with anyone I want to but... I want love and those things are two different things. I want love, why am I getting fucks? I'm not even a player.

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Just earlier, I got home from Zambales even met my hunky crushie and turned out to be with someone already. HEARTBREAKING! but its ok, just a crushie not a lover. But you know, it is downright painful knowing that you've been uhmm scratched off.

GANUN TALAGA.

Konti nalang papatol na ako sa babae talaga minus the drama.

Gone Surfing

"Uy, pasencya na. Late ako.
Pero malapit na ako. Hintay lang."
- Bagyong Reming

Alam kong super bagyo ang parating pero mahirap itago ang tuwa ko sa pagdating ng bagyo dahil ibigsabihin mataas ang alon. Lakasan na ng loob yan sa pag surf. Wala na tong urungan

Sana lang hindi gaano kalakas para muling mapinsala ang mga ciudad at probinsyang dadaanan nito. Sana lang talaga...dahil nakokonsenya ako dahil masaya ako kasi may bagyo... hehehehe

GONE SURFING ...

Isang Gabi sa Nippon Maru

Ang Nippon Maru sa North Harbor

Dumaong ang Nippon Maru sa North Harbor at bilang consolasyon at pampagana, naimbitahan akong maghapunan sa Nippon Maru kagabi. Consolasyon dahil di ako nakasama sa SSEAYP 2006 Delegation at pampagana dahil magpapasa na ako ng application ng mas maaga para sa susunod na delegation.

Naisip ko na ang pagikot at paglakbay sa 5 bansa sa Asya lulan ng isang malaking Barko ay hindi magandang ideya sapagkat ako'y allergic at asthmatic sa maraming bagay. Pero naisip ko rin na ang pagiging allergic at asthmatic ay overused excuse na para sakin. hehehe. (idagdag pa ang pagiging late)

Nailarawan ko sa aking isipan na ang barko ay hindi ligtas na transportasyon. Nakasakay narin kasi ako ng barko at hindi maganda ang ala-ala ko don (First Impression, lasts.) Sa unang paglakbay ko ng karagatan, ang dumi ng ship cabins, yung bintana ng cabin nadrowingan naming magpipinsan papuntang Boracay...at pauwi pagkatapos ng isang linggo, nandun parin ang drowing na lumulubog na ship. Gumegewang-gewang ang barko sa lakas ng hangin habang pumapalaot magdamag. Mejo hindi komportable talaga.

Pero iba ang Nippon Maru. Ang Nippon Maru ay isang 3 Star Cruise Ship at mula sa Japan. Alam kong 5 stars ang pinakamataas na antas ng luxury pero sa nakita ko sa Nippon Maru, masaya na ako sa 3 stars.

Nais ko sanang libutin ang barkong Nippon Maru ngunit sabi nga ni Frankie "Bata" Ong ang presidente ng SSEAYP Philippines "Everything has changed since 9-11", mahigpit ang seguridad sa loob ng Nippon Maru. Sa lobby at ballroom suite lang ang maaring pasyalan. Ok narin dahil ang pagtitiis ay ayon sa kaligtasan ng lahat naman.

Gusto kong mapabilang sa susunod na paglayag ng Nippon Maru.

Bakuran Ng Magpipinsan

Sa bakuran lang ng magpipinsan, marami ang nangyayari. Minsan nagugulat na lang ako sa lahat ng aming pinagbago. Heto na siguro yung transisyon mula inosenteng bata tungo sa nagmamaalam-alam na binata at dalaga.

May kanya-kanya ng sikreto na kapwa nabibisto ng magpinsan pero ayos lang yan... ganyan lang talaga ang samahan ng magpipinsan.

Tamang salo lang.
Tamang good time.

Di parin ako sanay na nagmamatandaan kami. Feeling ko pag nagkikita kaming magpipinsan.... bata parin kami na nag te-train sa hagdanan, nag bebed-sleigh ride mula sa top step ng hagdanan, umaakyat ng poste ng swing para magchill, nagka-kamias/toyo/asukal/asin trip, maglakad mula bahay hangang Glori (na ngayon ay Champion na) para hanapin ang pangalan sa robee stickers na palagi namang wala ang pangalan ko Jasmin or Jam.

Iba na ngayon.
Iba na ang trip ngayon.

Layu-layo narin ang mga bahay namin. Nasa San Diego, NY, Auckland, Toronto, Pennsylvania, San Beda Village at ang home base Teachers Village. Layu-layo na talaga kaya kada kita namin ang daming nagbabago parang hindi ko na sila kilala. Ganun din ata ang tingin nila...pero ayos lang. Embrace change as it happens...ika nga.

Basta nagkikita.
Kahit ang mga nasa homebase at San Beda Village nalang ang nagkikita isang beses sa isang buwan.

Aalis pa kaya ako ng bansa?

Am I Boring You?

I think I'm getting old and boring.

I'm a frigid 24 years old soltera...yep no boyfriend. (although, I value my "ME" time, sometimes I want "cuddling" time...please don't tell me to look at the bright side of being single because seriously... I've lived those happy days and I'm yearning for love at the moment --ewww cheesy).

Love is elusive. I'm not literally chasing it but in fact, I'm staying still hoping it decides to rest on me. But not a shit does it... not even a shit dares to come near me --but that's a lie.

I get asked out on a date but it doesn't seem right. I'm really careful now about dating after I dated a good looking colleague which conveniently forgot to say he's married and a father of two and his wife is on her third pregnancy. Nasty. If it is any improvement, a perv friend, a highschool boy, and a friend who is a single parent are pursuing me. I don't know..it still looks nasty to me.

It's quite interesting that I'm feeling sulky about my soltera status. (Si Marco kasi e may girlfriend na. hahahaha)

Nakakagagong Quotes

Quote a Thing, is this the new sms/txting fad?

I received these messages from friends. Notable quotes from everyday objects and people. Mejo nakakagago lang talaga

• "Hindi lahat ng malakas ay superhero" - putok
• "Pano tyo makakabuo kung hindi ako papatong sa 'yo?" -lego
• "Bad news, may dengue ako" - lamok
• "Sige magpakasasa ka! Alam ko naman katawan lang ang habol mo sa akin" -hipon
• "Wag po natin salubungin ang mga bumababa, di po natin sila kamaganak" -LRT Operator

Gusto ko lang sabihin sila na

• "Wag mo akong subukan" -lason
• "Ipasok mo ako sa tamang butas" -basura
• "Di mo ako matitiis" - LBM
• "Sige, huthot lang ng huthot" - wallet

Cinemanila and Cine Europa

bIf you have missed the Cinemanila early shows this year (CCP and UP Theatre) , it is not too late to catch it until November 15, 2oo6 at SM Cinemas (Mall of Asia -Cinema 6; Megamall -Cinema 12 and SM North Edsa -The Block Cinema 2). Ticket price is P100 (P50 for students). More details on film scheds . Visit 8th Cinemanila International Film Festival Website for other events like seminars/workshops on film or screen writing.

Don't miss it, For Pedro's sake.

Simultaenously, the Delegation of the European Commission to the Philippines is hosting the Cine Europa from November 9 - 19, 2006 at Shangri-la (Shaw Blvd.). Featuring contemporary and critically acclaimed films from different European Countries (Austria, Belgium, Czech Republic, Spain, France, Finland, Germany, Netherlands, Portugal, Sweden and UK). FREE ADMISSION.

Come an hour earlier than the screening time to ensure you get seats. You'll thank me with this advice.